Slow Fade!

 

 

Lying alone in the darkness,

I learned about despair;

I cried myself numb,

Telling myself I didn’t care.

 

Another disappointment,

Another lesson learned;

It never gets any easier,

Another page is turned.

 

The lonely hours of the night,

Slowly creep by until the dawn;

I lie there remembering,

Because the memories linger on.

 

And endless inner movie,

Plays inside my head;

I doesn’t need to fall asleep,

To feel a sense of dread.

 

Still the nightmares come unbidden,

Very late at night;

I finds myself awakening,

Crying out in fright.

 

I learned to soothe myself,

For there was no one to hold my hand;

I been told many times before,

I made too many demands.

 

And so I lie there shivering,

Staring at the shadows on the wall;

I seeks to let my mind go blank,

Trying to think of nothing at all.

 

I dreads the early morning,

When once more I must wake;

Get up and out of bed,

And paste a smile upon my face.

 

A consummate actress,

No one is aware;

Of the darkness that continues to linger,

Hidden under there.

 

So I keep on going,

Day by weary day;

Yet I still keeps hoping,

It would all just fade away